+ creeped out +

You know what I would do every time I was given an ultimatum?
I would run away. Yes, you heard me right, I would pack my bags and run away. Every single time. Why? Cause I hate to choose. And most of all, I hate the fact that my life could be controlled by such choices. Who are they to give me a choice of what to be done. Why can't I just do what I want? Maybe I can, so I ran away.

The only problem is,
this time, I don't think I can run away.
I don't think I am capable of running away
I don't think I will have the heart to run away
I don't think I WANT to run away

It scared me to death...............

I'm trapped...

x deez x
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+ killer killers +

I listened to The Killers (not so) new song today and it was amazing! Oh my my, this is way and beyond Killers! I mean, we all know I've been a big fan of theirs for as long as I could remember but Human is such a magnificent song, I felt like crying the 1st time I listen to that song. I know, I might be a bit late on this but hey, who can blame me right? I have no time for much music lately. Anyway, following Hot Fuss and Sam's Town, Day & Age will be awesome!

Huh, I feel oddly old. :D
Can't wait to buy the new album!

As for we are talking about music, I know some of you are laughing at my lack of updates in the music world too. So, I am now posting here a list of my top 11 songs currently in my play list. See if you can top that Zed!
11. Love bug - Jonas Brothers ( I know some of you are laughing your head off but hey, I like the song okay!)
10. Hot and Cold - Katy Perry (I love this girl)
9. Lucky - Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat (it's a cute song)
8. Viva La Vida - Coldplay (can't get enough of this song)
7. So What - Pink (I still love her despite her breakoff with Carey Hart)
6. Cookie Jar - Gym Class Heroes (2 words; Travis McCoy)
5. Details in The Fabric - Jason Mraz ft James Morrison (~cry~ that's all I can say)
4. Cry Of The Brave - Dragon Force (awesome awesome song)
3. Light On - David Cook (*sigh* he sure know how to make me fall in love with him over and over)
2.Kamu - Sharidir (this is the 1st time I like a Malay song more than a week)
1. Human - The Killers (need I say more?)

Miss you all though.
See you soon.

x deez x
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+ moment of fright +

When you make a decision in a rush, you tend to make mistakes. At least that is what they all had been telling me.

If you don't even feel even feel afraid of that decision, doesn't that means that you are making a right one? To add to that, what if the decision leaving you feeling happy and glad all at the same time? What if the decision you make feel so right and you know deep in your heart it is the sole right decision after all?

Should I care about what other think?
I don't think so.
Should I worry about what others may say?
I don't think I care.
Should I let others make me doubt my own decision that I felt so right at the beginning?
I shouldn't give a damn.

Yes, I've made my decision and I am sticking with it!

I had never feel certain and confident about anything in my life as I am feeling about this.
I don't care what other think.
I am listening to my heart.
I am following what my mind is telling me.
I should be happy with my choice.
Nobody can make me feel less about it.

I've changed. People changes. I like the new me.
Thank you for giving me strength. :)

x deez x
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I heard your heartbeat today.
I FELT your heartbeat.
It was steady, it was soothing, and I like the sound of it.
I'm happy.
I really really am.

=) ^_^

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+ they don't know how long it takes +

I asked you once what love is. You gave me an answer that put a smile on my face.
Couple of days back, you asked me what love is. I couldn't answer cause I didn't know how to. You know how words fail to find it way out of my mouth. But now, I'm telling you what love is.

Love is when I couldn't stop thinking about you,
When every moment seemed to me as if I am going to die for missing you,
Love is when I do something, I tend to relate it to you,
When nobody seemed to be around when I caught a glimpse of you,
Love is when it is hard for me to breathe when I imagine life without you,
When the sight of you hurting makes me want to die,
Love is when you cry, the whole world seemed to crash on me,
And when you stop, the sun seemed to shine again.

Most of all,
Love to me is when every time I am with you,
I feel happy and content,
And I'll do anything, ANYTHING to just stay with you.

In short,
LOVE for me,
is.... You.



Damn...Was that me typing? *sigh*

x deez x
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